Beware the Wild (Beware the Wild #1)

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It’s an oppressively hot and sticky morning in June when Sterling and her brother, Phin, have an argument that compels him to run into the town swamp—the one that strikes fear in all the residents of Sticks, Louisiana. Phin doesn’t return. Instead, a girl named Lenora May climbs out, and now Sterling is the only person in Sticks who remembers her brother ever existed.

Sterling needs to figure out what the swamp’s done with her beloved brother and how Lenora May is connected to his disappearance—and loner boy Heath Durham might be the only one who can help her.

This debut novel is full of atmosphere, twists and turns, and a swoon-worthy romance.


 

Rating:  3.5/5

My favourite reviewer read this book and liked it, so I read it based on her recommendation. It was, surprisingly, below expectations. I liked the setting of the book, and it did creep me out at certain points, but I expected something much, much darker and scarier. I was definitely not scared enough.

As the synopsis of the book said, Sterling’s brother, Phineas, ran into the swamp one day and a girl, Lenora May, came out in his place. No one remembered Phineas afterwards, except for Sterling. She was desperate to save him, but when nobody else remembered, she couldn’t do anything. Until Heath told her that he believed her. They started forming a connection and blah, blah, blah, and then they save Phineas! Yay! It is basically EXACTLY as the synopsis says.

It is extremely difficult to bore me. When I’m bored, it’s usually because the book is really, really long. But this book was short and still managed to do so. I was really bored in the middle of the book because there was so much ANGST going on. The plot was also really quite draggy in the first 60% of the book and the romance was boring. It was all really BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGG. The author attempted a twist in the book, but I saw it coming from 100000000 miles away :/

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Sterling was kind of a brat, and I couldn’t really see much of her personality besides her love for her brother. Heath felt kind of one-dimensional, so I couldn’t really empathise with him. My favourite character was actually Lenora May, because she wasn’t completely filled with anger, and because she was also quite sweet.

The last 30-40% of the book was pretty decent as it had more action scenes (and also less angst), which managed to (kind of) redeem some of the bad parts. Overall, plot was completely predictable, way too much angst in the first part, romance was boring, but the ending was decent. Wouldn’t recommend it too much, but if you don’t mind the lack of action scenes, it’s a decent book.

With howls and groans and pleading, dear,

The swamp will call you near,

Beware the songs it sings to you,

Beware the things you hear.

All the Truth That’s in Me

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Four years ago, Judith and her best friend disappeared from their small town of Roswell Station. Two years ago, only Judith returned, permanently mutilated, reviled and ignored by those who were once her friends and family.

Unable to speak, Judith lives like a ghost in her own home, silently pouring out her thoughts to the boy who’s owned her heart as long as she can remember—even if he doesn’t know it—her childhood friend, Lucas.

But when Roswell Station is attacked, long-buried secrets come to light, and Judith is forced to choose: continue to live in silence, or recover her voice, even if it means changing her world, and the lives around her, forever.

This startlingly original novel will shock and disturb you; it will fill you with Judith’s passion and longing; and its mysteries will keep you feverishly turning the pages until the very last.


 

Rating: 5/5
It takes a lot for a book to render me almost completely speechless. If I remember correctly, I’ve never been speechless about a book in my life. I’ve praised, ranted and cried over books. But I’ve never been left incapable of words before. That was how hard this book hit me.

This story is written in the second person’s narrative, with “you” being Lucas, the love of Judith’s life. Being a diary of sorts, it jumps occasionally between the past and the present. With the second person narrative and the time changes, I would usually get befuddled, but in this case, they somehow work.

I really cannot express my feelings for the book in words. When I read the synopsis, I thought that I’d be reading something entirely different. Exactly what, I cannot say. Just not this dark tale which left me depressed the rest of the night.

I have to say, this book is not typically something that I would read. I only read it because of the great reviews that it had. And I’m not disappointed, at all. Throughout the book, I felt Judith’s hope, her despair, her joy, and I went on that emotional journey with her. It’s a really rare thing when the author manages to capture her audience so deeply, that they actually feel like they become part of the story.

In hours, all I know will be consumed.

All that have mocked me, ignored me, spat upon me since my return. They were once my neighbours and friends, even if I am no longer theirs.

Even they are worth a sacrifice.

The story is set in the past, maybe in about the mid-1800s? (That’s what my friend thinks, anyway.) Then, one’s maidenhood was still considered to be of the utmost importance, even if the lady had been forced against her will. A lady who was not deemed to be ‘pure’ would be the lowest of the low, and she would be ridiculed and cast aside. If you are unable to read about the social stigma and all the accompanying actions of the people, I would suggest that you avoid this book, because it hits you really hard, right smack in the face.

I was drawn into the book within the first 10 pages, and I couldn’t stop reading. I loved the brother-sister relationship of Darrel and Judith. The love story didn’t bother me, although I usually dislike romances that take up a huge part of the plot. Recommended to all.

“Get your learning while you canh.”

Darrel paused to shift his weight off his crutch for a few seconds’ rest.

“I will,” he said, charging forward again. “For as long as I have to. But you don’t have to keep going for my sake. If Lucas will keep driving me, you don’t need to go.”

“I wantt to learn,” I reminded him.

He gave me a sly look, his freckled imp’s face smiling like it once did more often.

“Don’t see why it matters so much now,” he said, poking me with his crutch. “What does a housewife need with reading?”

And he took off hop-stepping before I could wallop him.

 

Out for Blood (Drake Chronicles #3)

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Hunter Wild is the youngest in a long line of elite vampire hunters, a legacy that is both a blessing and a curse at the secret Helios-Ra Academy, where she excels at just about everything. Thanks to her friendship with Kieran Black, Hunter receives a special invitation to attend the coronation of Helena Drake, and for the first time, she sees the difference between vampires that must be hunted and vampires that can become friends-or even more. When students at the academy fall victim to a mysterious illness, Hunter suspects they are under attack from within. She will need someone she can trust to help her save the future of Helios-Ra . . . help that shockingly comes in the form of Quinn Drake, a drop-dead gorgeous vampire. Who said senior year would be easy?


 

Rating: 5/5

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Most accurate portrayals of me during/after reading this book.

I’m so glad to say that so far, this series hasn’t disappointed me. The plot twists might have been way too predictable, but the plot itself is decent, and the characters are amazing.

In this third installment of the series, we don’t focus on the vampires as much as we do on the vampire hunters, the Helios-Ra. Students in the Helios-Ra academy are falling sick, but there is more to the illness than meets the eye. Hunter decides to get to the bottom of it, but to do so, she needs the help of the gorgeous, flirtatious Quinn Drake. Through their interactions, their relationship develops from friendship into something more.

Let’s talk about the romance first, shall we?

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EEEEKK. GUYS, THEY’RE TOO CUTE. I’ve always had a thing for bad boys like Quinn, so it’s no surprise that I really, really, REALLY like him. He’s also not the obnoxious “I’ll treat you badly so that you’ll go away because I bring danger to you blah blah blah” type, and so I like him even more. Hunter is a kickass hunter (hehehe that pun) who doesn’t need Quinn to be her knight in shining armour because she can take care of herself. She knows that she shouldn’t be falling for him so hard, but she can’t help it. What I like about this romance is that they don’t try to deny their attraction, like so many other books in other series. He doesn’t go, “Oh it’s too dangerous to be around me so I’m gonna ignore you and be mean to you/blow hot and cold towards you” (Ok, fine, he did that once but he got over it soon enough), and she doesn’t go, “BOOHOOHOO I’m a hunter and you’re a vampire so we can never be together but I’m so attracted to you *swoons*”. The only time Quinn was hiding from Hunter (and he was literally hiding in his room), she kicked down his door, then he got over it. In my opinion, that basically makes them a perfect match. CERTAIN OTHER AUTHORS, PLEASE TAKE NOTE THAT THIS IS HOW YOU MAKE ROMANCE NOT ANNOYING.

The sibling relations in this book are so cute, I have honestly no words to describe them. I know that I mentioned the sibling relations in my reviews of the 1st and 2nd book, but I just can’t get enough of it. And since I can’t describe them, I’ll just quote some of the paragraphs from the book.

First, we have Solange and Quinn.

“Sol, all that’s normal. Lucy smelled good before I turned and now she smells even better. But I haven’t tried to eat her face and neither will you.”

“She’s not safe in this house.”

“Safer than out there,” I argued, even though I agreed with her. “Look, you used to eat hamburgers.”

She blinked, confused. “So?”

“So, did you ever walk through one of the farms at a field party and suddenly try to eat a cow?”

“Um, no.” Her chuckle was watery but it was better than nothing. “And, ew.”

“Exactly. You can crave blood and not eat your best friend.”

“You make it sound so normal. And I’m totally telling Lucy you compared her to a cow.”

Then, there’s Sebastian and Quinn.

“Quinn.” Sebastian raised his eyebrows. “You walked right by that girl. What’s wrong?”

“I did?” I looked over my shoulder. A vampire with short brown hair and beauty mark at the side of her mouth winked at me. I winked back. Then I turned back to Sebastian, horrified. “I didn’t even see her.”

“You’re off your game.”

“Shh, keep it down, will you?” I straightened my shirt. “I have a reputation. I’m going back. She’s cute.”

“Forget it. She flirts with everyone.”

“So?” I grinned.

“Just come on. Mom and Dad are in the back room. And we can’t handle any more disgruntled exes.”

We really need to see more of Sebastian. Marcus and Duncan, too.

Finally, there’s Kieran (sister being Hunter) and Quinn (sister being Solange).

Yup. I was totally, completely, and irrevocably into this girl.

A thump on the door had us both jumping.

“Hey, get off my sister,” Kieran barked from the other side.

“Get lost, Black,” I called out. “And she’s not your sister.”

“May as well be.”

“Well, you stop kissing Solange and I’ll stop kissing Hunter.”

Why are they all so cute. They are literally the definition of #siblinggoals.

Overall, the plot is decent, the romance is really cute, and #siblinggoals. It more than makes up for the completely predictable plot twist, occasional grammatical error and some really cheesy clichés. Recommended for everyone who just wants to have a fun time reading.

“I feel like I’m in the witness protection program,” Lucy whispered. “You guys need suits and dark glasses.”

“I’m not wearing a suit even for you, sweetheart,” I whispered back.

“You’re no fun.”

As the silence stretched uncomfortably, she started to hum the theme song to Mission: Impossible under her breath.

Solange smothered a startled laugh. “Are you nuts?”

“Your brothers need to meditate. They’re all stressed out and their chi is bunching up. That can’t be comfortable.”

“I don’t even know what that means,” Nicholas hissed at her. “But there’s this whole stealth thing we’re going for. You’re not helping.”

Lucy grinned at Solange. “He’s so cute when he tries to be all Alpha male.”

“This is serious, Lucy.”

“She reached and pulled a piece of his hair. “I know that. But we’re barely off the driveway.”

“If you don’t stop talking I will hide all of your chocolate,” Nicholas promised.

Hallowed (Unearthly #2)

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For months Clara Gardner trained to face the fire from her visions, but she wasn’t prepared for the choice she had to make that day. And in the aftermath, she discovered that nothing about being part angel is as straightforward as she thought.

Now, torn between her love for Tucker and her complicated feelings about the roles she and Christian seem destined to play in a world that is both dangerous and beautiful, Clara struggles with a shocking revelation: Someone she loves will die in a matter of months. With her future uncertain, the only thing Clara knows for sure is that the fire was just the beginning.

In this compelling sequel to Unearthly, Cynthia Hand captures the joy of first love, the anguish of loss, and the confusion of becoming who you are.


 

Rating: 2.5/5

Well. That was unexpectedly unpleasant. It wasn’t bad by any standards, I just really, really, REALLY hate love triangles. I hate them with my heart, body, and soul. I find them ridiculous and pointless, so the love triangle being more or less the MAIN THEME annoyed me to no end. By the end of the book, I was just like:

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The frustration is real.

Furthermore, the whole book was basically a giant pity party for dear old Clara. Lovely, just lovely. I would give y’all a little rundown of the plot, but I’m sure it’s safe to say that it goes like this (it’s all from Clara’s POV):

CHRISTIAN CHRISTIAN CHRISTIAN

HMPH MY MOM IS KEEPING SECRETS FROM ME AGAIN

TUCKER TUCKER TUCKER

BOOHOOHOO WOE IS ME

CHRISTIAN TUCKER CHRISTIAN TUCKER

WAHHHHHHHH I’M THE CENTRE OF THE EFFING UNIVERSE

CHRISTIAN CHRISTIAN TUCKER TUCKER CHRISTIAN TUCKER

(When I start colour coding stuff, it means that I’m getting really pissed off.)

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Gods, it’s like some horror story unfolding right in front of my eyes.

Let me just quote something for the book that just. Urgh. Just read it, please.

Before I moved here, I never got the whole love-triangle thing. You know, in movies or romance novels or whatnot, where there’s one chick that all the guys are drooling over, even though you can’t see anything particularly special about her. But oh, no, they both must have her. And she’s like, oh dear, however will I choose? William is so sensitive, he understands me, he swept me off my feet, oh misery, blubber, blubber, but how can I go on living without Rafe and his devil-may-care ways and his dark and only-a-little-abusive love? Upchuck. So unrealistic, I always thought.

Joke’s on me, I guess.

So, she knows that it’s a joke. A big, fat, torturous joke. But it doesn’t stop. No, it does not. It drags on until the book is almost done. I just. I cannot.

Anyway, now that my rant about the love triangle is done (who am I kidding I could never finish ranting), I will talk about the characters. Or try my best to talk about them, because dear Clara is the centre of the damn galaxy and other characters are just her accessories.

I think that I’ve made my feelings very clear on Clara. I thoroughly dislike her in this book, and not just because of the love triangle and its ‘end’. I find her extremely self-centred and selfish. Everything is about her. It’s almost never about anyone else. Granted, there were certain times where she thought about other people’s feelings, but they were not enough to make up for her general lack of consideration.

Tucker was pretty much just Clara’s arm candy. I didn’t see his personality much because he was smooching with Clara half the time. I wish I’d seen more of him. I really, really like him. (Yes, I’m on Team Tucker.) I have never really felt anything for Christian. He’s way too perfect, and he’s also a freaking special snowflake. It irritates me. He was also just there to play the part of the other love interest. Barely a lick of personality shown. Wendy was basically non-existent, and Angela was mostly there to give us information.

Despite the many flaws in the characters and the presence of the stupid, utterly ridiculous, irritating-as-eff  love triangle, the writing was not bad, and the plot flowed pretty well. I know slightly more about the world than I did in the previous book (thanks to Angela), so I guess it doesn’t deserve a one star rating? This book also features Clara’s dad (who I like), so I guess that makes it slightly better. I’ll read the next book just so I can get this trilogy over and done with. Recommended to people with high tolerance for self-pity and love triangles.

“No, I want to meet this Tucker kid.”

“Dad. He’s not a kid.”

“Don’t you want me to meet him?” he asks with the hint of a smile. “Are you afraid I’ll scare him off?”

Yes.

“No,” I say. “But don’t try to scare him off, okay? He’s been pretty cool with all the crazy stuff so far. I don’t want to push it.”

“Got it. No threatening his life if he doesn’t treat my daughter right.”

Dangerous Deceptions (Palace of Spies #2)

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As a lady in waiting in King George’s London court, Peggy has survived a forced betrothal, royal scandals, and an attempt or two on her life. And now she has a new problem: her horrible fiancé has returned to claim her! To save her neck, or at least her hand in marriage, Peggy joins forces with her cousin Olivia and her sweetheart, Matthew. But if she doesn’t play her cards right, her career as courtier and spy might come to an end at the bottom of the river Thames . . .


 

Rating: 3.5/5

This book suffered from the extremely common “Middle Book Syndrome” that we see in most trilogies. It wasn’t bad by any standards, but it was awfully dull at some points. There weren’t as many funny moments when compared to the previous book in the trilogy, and the story tended to drag in the middle section. That being said, I still did enjoy this book, which is why I’m giving it a relatively high rating.

In this book, Peggy Fitzroy continues her spying duties, but as herself. She needs to work to uncover all the traitors in the palace. If that isn’t hard enough, she also has to deal with not only her uncle, but also her douchey, asshat fiancé and his family. Throughout the book, we get to see how all the people mentioned above were involved in conspiracies of various kinds, and how Peggy managed to expose them. Needless to say, at the end of it all, she probably felt like this:

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I really missed Peggy’s sharp tongue in this book. There were, of course, certain moments where her wit/straightforwardness shone through, but she was usually either too worried/angry/occupied/confused to be witty/sarcastic. It was this trait of hers that charmed me and made me like her a lot more in the first book, so to find it mostly lacking in the sequel is a huge disappointment. However, there were still certain paragraphs that I found highly amusing, and I will show you an example of one such paragraph below.

I believe I can safely say that what followed was as graceless a moment of heaving, scrabbling, puffing, coughing, wriggling, and frantic, muffled cursing as any known in the history of sneak-thievery. This magnificent living display of the manifold reasons why one should never attempt to burgle a home in skirts culminated in my falling to the floor of the book room in a great, silken heap.

Peggy’s cousin, Olivia, played a much bigger role in this book than the previous one, and I still don’t know if that’s a good thing or not. On one hand, it’s always delightful to see a friendly female character that’s intelligent. On the other hand, I feel like she’s an additional burden for Peggy because she is way too reckless for her own good. Therefore, I can’t really decide as to how exactly I feel about her.

I think that the greatest surprise to me in these two books is how much I actually like Princess Caroline. I thought that she’d at least be aloof and haughty, if not completely stuck up. That was obviously a huge mistake. Princess Caroline is really intelligent, and she is also really personable. Even I would be content in serving her (and goodness knows how I don’t like being told what to do). She also happens to really like and trust Peggy (even though Peggy might end up screwing up badly), and that makes me like her even more. Thank you, Ms. Zettel, for not making the princess an annoying dumbs***.

All in all, this book was pretty decent. The good points were that we got to know more about Olivia and the Princess, Peggy managed to figure out the conspiracies, and Matthew and Peggy were way too cute. The not-so-good points were that the “suspense” was a bit too long, which caused the book to become a tad dry, and that there was supposed to be a “twist”, but I saw it coming. Recommended.

What was the point of a spy master if he could not supply his spies with important information? Here my great, scheming, mysterious patron could only tell me that Sebastian was a conniving no-good from a family of conniving no-goods who associated themselves with other conniving no-goods from a county well populated by members of that species.

 

Blood Feud (Drake Chronicles #2)

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It’s been centuries since Isabeau St. Croix barely survived the French Revolution. Now she’s made her way back to the living and she must face the ultimate test by confronting the evil British lord who left her for dead the day she turned into a vampire. That’s if she can control her affection for Logan Drake, a vampire whose bite is as sweet as the revenge she seeks.
The clans are gathering for Helena’s royal coronation as the next vampire queen, and new alliances are beginning to form now that the old rifts of Lady Natasha’s reign have started to heal. But with a new common enemy, Leander Montmarte—a vicious leader who hopes to force Solange to marry him and usurp the power of the throne for himself—the clans must stand together to preserve the peace he threatens to destroy.
This second adventure in the Drake Chronicles—told from both Logan’s and Isabeau’s perspectives—has all the same butt-kicking action, heart-pounding romances and snarky humor that readers loved in Hearts at Stake, as well as exciting new revelations about the vampire dynasties to keep readers coming back for more.


 

Rating: 5/5 :DDDDDDD

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Ok, review done, BYEEEEEEE.

I’m kidding. (Please don’t go.)

Seriously, this book is so hilarious and awesome that that’s the only face I could make after finishing it.

In the sequel to “Hearts At Stake”, we follow the Drake family as they prepare for the coronation of Helena – and the work and attempted assassinations and other crap that go along with that. Instead of looking at things through Lucy’s and Nicholas’ eyes, this time, we explore their world through the narratives of Logan and Isabeau.

I would like to say that I thoroughly enjoyed every minute of reading this book. It was funny, it was sweet, and it was crazy. This book is exactly what I need right now. You can’t tell me that you don’t laugh/go “AWW HELL YEAH” when you read these kind of things.

Lucy snorted. “Snow White and the Seven Buttheads. You could give Disney a run for their money.”

Nicholas poked her in the ribs. “I am not a singing dwarf!”

“What the hell is that?” I asked.

“It’s a dog,” she replied matter-of-factly.

“Isabeau, that’s not a dog, that’s a moose.”

“Finally, a bit of luck. Rat bastard,” I hissed down at Montmartre. “Mangy dog of a scurvy goat.”

“That doesn’t even make sense,” Isabeau murmured.

“Feels good though. Try it.”

She narrowed her eyes at the top of Montmartre’s perfectly groomed hair. “Balding donkey’s ass.”

“Nice.”

“Sniveling flea-bitten rabid monkey droppings.”

“Clearly, you’re a natural.”

“The hell you will,” Logan yelled, finally swinging into the clearing. His brothers followed suit, like deranged monkeys. I barely had time to whistle the dogs into an attack.

Every single one of the Drake brothers was insane.

HAHAHAHA. I’m actually partially regretting my decision to read this book in public because my body was shaking with suppressed laughter half the time and anyone looking at me might be wondering why the eff I was laughing so hard at a book. (I’m sure I’m not the only one who laughs at stuff in public… Right?)

The Drake brothers have the best sense of humour ever, and Lucy just gets me with her personality EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. SHE APPEARS. That girl is my spirit animal.

As far as main characters go, Logan and Isabeau are pretty good. They don’t make ridiculously stupid decisions. They aren’t embroiled in some stupid love triangle. Their feelings for each other slowly develop. They can see reason (except when it involves Solange, then all the big brother instincts kick in). I liked that we got to know Isabeau more through her past, but I feel like the past sometimes disrupted the exciting moment in the present. There would be times where one chapter ended on a really exciting note in the present, then the next chapter talked about Isabeau’s past, and so the excitement died when I continued with the present. That was the only thing that actually bothered me in this book, but it wasn’t a huge annoyance, so I didn’t remove any stars for it.

Overall, this book was fan-freaking-ta-bulous. The family dynamics was amazing (I want an older brother NOW), the humour left me giggling like an idiot, and we got to know more about the vampire world (i.e. the Hounds). Recommended for anyone who wants a fun read.

“Liam Drake, I can look after myself.”

“Helena Drake, I love you, take the extra guard.”

They glowered at each other. I knew Dad would win. Mom was vicious when cornered, but Dad had a way about him, like a snake hypnotising his supper. His glower softened. “Please, love.”

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URGH EVEN THE DRAKE PARENTS ARE CUTE.

 

P.S. Sorry that I haven’t written a book review in forever. I read two Agatha Christie books in that break period, but I decided not to review them because most people would have already done so.

When life doesn’t just throw lemons

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I don’t know if it’s just me, but life never only throws lemons at me. It also throws rock melons, watermelons, and durians. All at the same time. So instead of lemonade, I get a… Fruit salad?

You can probably guess that I’m writing this because I just got all those fruits thrown at me. I’m tired, I’m hurt, and I sometimes just don’t want to go all fruit ninja on them just to make my fruit salad. I need to rest. I need a good, long rest where I can just stop thinking about everything, for once.

For the past 5 weeks, I’ve been fretting about my friendship/relationship, universities and scholarships. Unfortunately, my friendship/relationship has been on my mind the most (yes, I know, my priorities are messed up). In the first three weeks, I could not stop thinking about what the bloody heck the two of us were. I didn’t know what he felt, and so I wanted to clarify with him in person. I had to endure it for three weeks because he is currently in the army, and so he is only available on weekends. He sometimes already has plans, and so I still can’t see him. When I finally met him that third week, it was at, like, 11pm, and I only saw him for an hour as he was really tired. Thankfully, I managed to find out what he felt, but I still didn’t know what the relationship between the two of us was because we got distracted. URGH.

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I’ve also been accepted by three universities, but I want the one that my parents cannot pay for, because it’s the only one out of the three that offers the course that I want. The deadline for the acceptance of the other two universities is drawing near (it’s next week), so I’m completely lost. I need a scholarship to go to that particular university, but the scholarship people haven’t gotten back to me after the interview on Monday and now I’m just like ALJFDHGIKJLSBDFKJHAGSDIFKLGA.

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Now that my mini rant is over, let’s get back to the main point.

Most of the time, life never just hits you over the head once. No, no, it hits you over the head, steps on you, then drives over you with a truck. And so, on the inside, you’re probably looking like that scary girl who walks down the stairs backwards in “The Exorcist”. You’re feeling hurt/angry/tired/frustrated/all of the emotions stated, and you’re wondering why all this s*** is happening to you.

Let me tell you something. It is only temporary, and it does get better after this crappy period. I know that you’ve probably heard that 1000000000 times already, but it’s true. As someone who has had 4 depressive episodes (actual depressive episodes, though their magnitudes did vary) in the past 5 years, I can assure you that life does get better after each s****y period. Not only that, you become a stronger person afterwards. Looking at my history, you probably wouldn’t think that I’ve become any more stable. But I have. For the 4th episode, I actually managed to recognise pretty quickly that I was effed up (again), and I knew what I had to do in order to get back on my feet. Compared to those who have had everything they wanted handed to them on a silver platter, you have already had a taste of failure/disappointment, and so, you’ll be more resilient than they are.

Although it can seem like life is bleak at times, it will become brighter in the future. Even the narrowest, smallest, and darkest tunnel still has a light at the end of it. You just have to hold on to the hope that you’ll find the light soon.

I’ll leave you with some lyrics to one of my favourite songs: Perfect by P!nk

Mistreated
Misplaced
Misunderstood
Miss no way it’s all good
It didn’t slow me down.

inspirational quote

 

Ranting and raving about “The Flash”

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WARNING: Major spoiler alert. If you haven’t watched all episodes of “The Flash” so far and you’re planning to watch it, do not read this post. Repeat, do NOT read this post if you’re not entirely caught up with this series.

I have just watched the latest episode of “The Flash” (i.e. Season 2 Episode 22: Invincible), and I think it’s safe to say that my heart broke completely. I just cannot. It’s too much. The pain is just too much. I feel like a part of my soul has just been ripped out from me. No, I’m not exaggerating. I tend to get very attached to the people in any television series that I watch, especially if that person has a beautiful heart. I’m listening to “Cheap Thrills” by Sia right now (which is currently my favourite song), and I can’t even muster up enough energy to move my body. I’m THAT upset.

Henry Allen. You will be dearly missed. You might not have had a huge role in this series, but you helped shape Barry Allen into the amazing hero that he is right now. You gave him great advice, you inspired him, and you loved him with all your heart. Your love for your son made us fans love you. Now that you’re gone, we just… I just… I’m so upset I can’t speak. I know that I sound like a complete idiot because you’re fictional, but my heart is still feeling the pain all the same.

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Rest In Peace, Henry Allen. We will all miss you in Earth 1.

With my tribute to him done, I would like to ask, WHY CAN’T WE JUST HAVE ONE HAPPY EPISODE HUH. Every time we think that there’ll be a happy ending, BOOM, something bad happens. I don’t get it, do the producers and writers get off on ruining happy endings (or episodes) and making us cry? Like that time when Barry went back in time to save his mother. I already knew that he wasn’t going to save her in the end, and I was okay with it, because I think that their world is already great like that. So I was all happy about it, and I was like, “Okay, he might not have saved his mom, but he’s gonna kick Eobard’s ass, which makes me happy.” BUT WHAT HAPPENED IN THE END? He DIDN’T kick Eobard’s ass, and Eddie shot himself. Great, freaking fantastic. There was also the issue of Ronnie and Caitlin. They finally managed to get married after overcoming SO. MANY. OBSTACLES. But what happened? Ronnie had to merge with Professor Stein to save the world, but only Professor Stein came back alive.

Come, let me just give the producers and writers a round of applause for all their sadism.

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(I know that they probably just followed the plot in the comic, but I’m upset, so just let me rant, ok?)

Despite all the heart-wrenching moments, there were also many moments that made my heart melt. The love that all the characters have for each other touches my heart deeply. Whenever two characters have an emotional conversation/moment, I can literally feel all the love radiating out from the screen, and it just warms my belly. Whether it’s romantic, platonic or familial, the relationships in this show are so well-portrayed that I can’t help but love all of it.

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Look at Harrison Wells and Jesse Quick :’)

There were other moments that just made me laugh out loud. I would say that most of those moments came from Cisco. That guy says the funniest things. His sense of humour is DA BOMB. Below are just a few instances where he made me look like a lunatic because I was laughing to myself.

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Man, I can’t wait to watch the final showdown between Zoom and Barry. It’s gonna be EPIC.

Fracture (Night School #3)

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Devastated by the loss of her friend and under constant threat from an unknown spy at Cimmeria Academy, Allie Sheridan is finding it hard to cope.

In Fracture, the third book in the Night School series, she’s not the only one losing it – everything is falling apart. And when Nathaniel begins to reveal his game plan, Isabelle starts to lose control.

As the school slides into a deadly morass of paranoia and suspicion, everyone is guilty until proved innocent. Anyone can be held without proof, and convicted without a trial. No one is safe.

This time Nathaniel doesn’t need to hurt them. This time they’re hurting themselves.


 

WARNING: Spoiler alert! Rant alert! Long post alert!

Rating: 3.5/5

The first 80 pages of the book was honestly a 0/5 for me. I ABSOLUTELY HATED THE FIRST 80 PAGES. I was so mad and annoyed to the point where I started to consider putting the series down for good. Unfortunately for me, I have Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS for short) and so I paid for my rage by spending 30 minutes in the toilet, trying to breathe through the pain in my abdomen. Darn it, I’m using a heat pack now because I’m still having cramps.

Anyway, those 80 pages were such a nightmare to get through. It was so difficult for me to keep reading because of all the pure idiocy that happened. I get it, Allie was devastated by Jo’s death. But the way that she dealt with it was beyond stupid. Distancing herself from people? Okay, I get it, I do that too when I’m upset. But running away without any money, mode of transport, or a concrete plan? GIRL, YOU DUMB. You know that Nathaniel is out there waiting to get his hands on you, and what do you do? RUN RIGHT INTO HIS ARMS.

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I was so glad that Isabelle called her out. I wasn’t sure I could have taken much more of her daft actions.

‘I know you’ve been through a lot over the last few months, but your reaction to Jo’s death was to strike out at the people who love you most,’ she’d said. ‘You hurt those people very badly. You never seemed to realise this fact: they were grieving, too. You’ve been cold to Rachel for weeks, so she’s gone through this painful time alone. And you’ve virtually ignored Zoe. She thinks of you as a big sister. She needed you but were too self-absorbed to be there for her.’

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Thank you, Isabelle. Allie really needed to stop with her extravagant pity party.

After the horrible start, the book got much better. Allie began to mature, although I felt like her actions were occasionally still… Questionable. She didn’t really get back to the whole “Boo hoo hoo woe is me” state, which was freaking wonderful. She did, however, go running off after some guy in the middle of the night. She also made Nicole and Zoe go to a creepy chapel with her at night. I’m not sure that I’m not upset at her for putting her friends in a potentially dangerous situation. These were the only two times in the rest of the book where I found her actions slightly reckless, so I forgive her for them.

I was really proud of her towards the end. She really showed us that she’d grown through all the experiences. I think I started to like her again in the last 80 pages.

‘Can I see the note, Allie?’ Raj held out his hand.

For a second, she hesitated. A few weeks ago, she wouldn’t have let anyone see this note. She would have run out there to try and get Rachel all on her own. And Rachel probably would have died.

But she’d learned. She’d watched the others sacrifice themselves for her, for Jo. She’d seen them take chances that could have cost them everything they cared about.

She trusted them. She believed in them.

So she turned to where they stood watching her. Catching her eye, Sylvain nodded once.

Only then did she pull the crumpled, blood-stained page from her pocket and hold it out to Raj.

CAN WE GET A ROUND OF APPLAUSE FOR ALLIE SHERIDAN RIGHT NOW.

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But enough about her. Let’s talk about the other characters!

Rachel is such a darling. She’s so sweet and brave. She’s also such a nerd that I can’t help but love her. Even though Allie treated her like trash for a while, she never blamed Allie for it. She was just so supportive of Allie throughout the book. I would love to have her as a friend.

Zoe is so cute and perky. She’s always so eager to help, but she always gets denied because Allie and the rest think that she’s too young. Although, in the end, they tend to relent because she’s the best person for the job. She has Aspergers, which sometimes causes her to say, er, inappropriate things, but that doesn’t matter. She’s lively, enthusiastic, and so endearing that nothing else matters.

Nicole seems really sweet and cool. We didn’t see THAT much of her, but she seems like someone I’d want to be friends with. I wouldn’t want to be around her if I have something I want to keep to myself though; she’s pretty observant.

The character who surprised me the most is Katie Gilmore. I was completely taken aback at her actions. I didn’t know that she could be non-bitchy towards Allie and her gang. She also provided them with useful information, so I was all like “Huh.” I think I might just change my mind about her.

Now, let’s move on to the romance. I’m going to be talking about Carter and Sylvain here because their main roles in this book was as Allie’s love interest.

… Well, I honestly don’t really know what to say, except that I hate love triangles. I hate them. I. HATE. THEM. I also don’t know why Allie is embroiled in this ridiculous love triangle anyway. I would have just stayed with Carter all the way. After what Sylvain did in the first book, I don’t know how Allie even considered him as a love interest. I know that people on Team Sylvain would be like, “Oh Carter’s a jerk, Sylvain is SO NICE AND HE SAVED HER LIFE SO SHE SHOULD BE WITH HIM!!!” Well, let me give you a situation. Imagine that you have a daughter, and some guy drugged her and tried to force himself on her. After that, he saved her life. Would you forgive him COMPLETELY and let her date him? Honestly, would you? Him trying to rape her, and him saving her life are TWO SEPARATE INCIDENTS. One should not affect the other. Yes, I would be grateful to him. Yes, I would let them be friends. But would I entrust my daughter to him? NAH UH. NOT OVER MY DEAD, ROTTING, MAGGOT-INFESTED BODY.

Even though I choose Carter over Sylvain, he is another idiot. He needs to stop blowing hot and cold and confusing the f*** out of Allie. He also has a tendency to be a jerk for no reason, which is kind of annoying. He is already dating Jules, so being with Allie is a no-no right now. But he’s still being ridiculously nice to her, which is messing with her emotions.

Seriously, Allie darlin’, ya should just go solo. Ain’t nobody got time for those two when you have Nathaniel after you.

As horrible as the first part was, it got much better at the end, so I’ll be reading the next book. The writing was also decent, so it definitely made reading it easier. Recommended for people who don’t have IBS, don’t get annoyed easily, and can grit their teeth through the first part to get to the sweet ending.

‘Anyway. We need to be careful what we talk about. We don’t want him to overhear anything.’

‘Totally. It would be bad to be talking about penises when he walked up,’ Zoe said.

‘Zoe!’ Allie and Nicole said at once.

The younger girl blinked at them. ‘Well, it would, wouldn’t it?’

‘Yes,’ Allie said primly. ‘And you’re too young to talk about penises to anyone.’

‘Why?’ Zoe seemed puzzled. ‘How old do I need to be to talk about penises?’

‘Sixteen,’ Allie said. At the same moment, Nicole said,’Fourteen,’ and Rachel said, ‘Fifteen.’

Exchanging a look the three of them burst into giggles.

‘Older.’ Allie felt breathless and hysterical. ‘Just… older than now.’

Zoe glared at them. ‘I can talk about penises if I want to.’

The Dead Girls of Hysteria Hall

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In this asylum, your mind plays tricks on you all the time…

Delia’s new house isn’t just a house. Long ago, it was the Piven Institute for the Care and Correction of Troubled Females—an insane asylum nicknamed “Hysteria Hall.” However, many of the inmates were not insane, just defiant and strong willed. Kind of like Delia herself.

But the house still wants to keep “troubled” girls locked away. So, in the most horrifying way, Delia gets trapped.

And that’s when she learns that the house is also haunted.

Ghost girls wander the halls in their old-fashioned nightgowns. A handsome ghost boy named Theo roams the grounds. Delia finds that all the spirits are unsettled and full of dark secrets. The house, as well, harbors shocking truths within its walls—truths that only Delia can uncover, and that may set her free.

But she’ll need to act quickly, before the house’s power overtakes everything she loves.

From master of suspense Katie Alender comes a riveting tale of twisted memories and betrayals, and the meaning of madness.


 

Rating: 4/5

A good horror story makes you go “Oh my freaking goodness I’m scared.” in the middle of the day. So I think that it’s safe to say that this book was pretty good, because I’m sure that my face was like this half the time when I was reading.

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Okay, maybe I can only watch horror movies meant for 13 year olds, and maybe I still scream like a 5 year old when I’m watching, but it doesn’t matter. Because this is a book. And books don’t have scary faces popping up in the middle of nowhere. Therefore, my opinion is completely valid.

Cordelia (Delia) Piven was the star child of the family, until she made an error in judgment one day. Her parents, having decided that she was never to be trusted again, chose to move to the house left for Delia by her recently deceased aunt for the summer. But the house is not some quaint little cottage left by some ordinary little old lady. It was actually an insane asylum, nicknamed “Hysteria Hall” from the late 1800s to the 1940s. Once they arrived, weird things started happening, and Delia wound up in the middle of it. She has to find out why the house is haunted, and stop the house before it does to her family what it did to her.

I really like Delia. She didn’t do anything that I considered TSTL (Too Stupid To Live).

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She knew that there was something weird about the house and so, she wanted to get out. She didn’t want to explore more rooms, or go down into creepy dark basements. Unfortunately, that didn’t happen, so she decided to work with what she got. There were certain tantrums thrown, but I can’t blame her. If I were in her situation, I’d probably just go and curl in the corner for the next 20 years. She managed to pull herself together, make really good friends, and even get herself a boy! She did all this while solving the mystery of the house and keeping her family safe, so kudos to her! It’s pretty rare to see such a brave, strong young lady in YA. I’ve had my share of TSTL, weak-willed girls who swoon at the touch of her stalker-ish to-be-boyfriend.

The other characters were really enjoyable to read about too. I loved reading about the interactions between all the girls. Because there aren’t that many guys, there wasn’t any cat-fighting, jealousy, and slut-shaming. We really got to know more about the girls and their lives through conversations and actions, and I really appreciated that.

I knew that the romance was coming from the moment I read the blurb. What I didn’t know was that it took pretty darn long for the romance to actually happen. I’m not mad at it; I actually prefer the slow development of their relationship. I just wasn’t expecting it to only happen in the last few pages. I would have liked to see a little more of the two of them together. They’re cute 😀

While this story wasn’t vastly original, I was still kept on tenterhooks throughout, so the book did its job well. Recommended for anyone who likes a good and quick horror story.

He gave me a half smile. His still, quiet nature was like soothing balm on an itchy bug bite. I realized that by fraternizing with another ghost, I was breaking the pledge I’d made to myself. But Theo didn’t seem particularly ghostlike. He was just a normal person.